Weird weekend..

This weekend was an odd one with many random events happening. Thursday night I was blamed for smoking weed in my dorm by a fat, short, overzealous cop whom thought he could intimidate me by swearing at me....news flash: saying "bad words" does not scare me, and I lose all respect for any adult who tries to do such a thing to me. Especially when I tower over you. Anyways...

Friday was an eventful day. Ray and I were supposed to hang that night and she stopped texting for about 2o minutes and then responded by telling me she had just found out 2 of her friends had just been killed in a car crash back home. She eventually asked me if I would take a drive with her, and of course I agreed to. We drove around for about an hour or so....and the first half hour was all silence minus a very somber and quiet acoustic mix cd she had in the car. We eventually pulled into this spot we had gone to a few months ago that is out in the middle of nowhere and quiet, and she went to her backseat and I followed, and she just broke down. What do you say in a situation like that? I literally could not think of anything to say that would matter at all, so I just held her and listened. We eventually went to go hang with other people to distract her, and it semi-worked I guess. She would choke up when it was only her and I in the room, and I would go comfort her until it became occupied again. We left around 2:30 that night, and she had been sleeping for about an hour, and once back in the car, started to tear up again. So I took her hand and we held hands for the first time in so long...New Years Eve if I remember correctly. It felt....well it felt awesome. Like how it should be. We got to my house to drop me off and we got out of the car and she hugged me for so long and so tight. It was hard letting her go when shes in that state.

Saturday was a good day. We hung out all day basically. She was a lot better, or at least she hid it well. She had a few moments, but that was it.

I've never been this close to a girl. Hell, maybe a person. I've never felt this way about someone. Its exciting and terrifying at the same time.