Tuesday, January 5, 2010

And the award for WORST break ever goes to...

This christmas break has officially been the most disappointing, boring, shitty, dramatic break I've ever experienced! I was so looking forward to hanging out with my family for those 2 weeks before christmas, then afterwards chillin with my best friends and girl. Everything I've wanted has turned to shit haha. Dare I say it...I'm excited to get back to school?....ehh...I cant bring myself to do it. I hate that school, going there makes me want to do grand and big things with my life...not because it is awesome, but because it sucks so bad.

Ray and I hung out a few days ago and talked about everything. The basis is that she is not talking to this guy anymore, but shes confused as to where this leaves us. Sigh. Ive been wondering if its even worth it at all? I cant tell if its my negative state of mind or if its reality, but it doesn't seem to look like it. I want nothing more than to make it work and bring it back to what it was before all this shit went down, but I mean, it is up to her to do it. I don't wanna waste time doing it if its gonna be all for nothing. Ughhhhhhhh...I wish I had the money and ability to travel to everywhere I want to go. Instead of being cooped up in my house right now for the last 3 days, I'd be in New York City or Pittsburgh or LA or San Diego doing...well, everything and anything. I finished a song today for my side project that has yet to be named. Thats about the only good thing thats happened. Smeh

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